As I sit here in my room with mild insomnia lightly biting at my toes, I can’t help but admire the beautiful art I have on my skin as I moisturize.
To be completely honest, I think it’s the first time I ever used a description like that about my skin. I never actually was happy with how I looked.
I mean, throughout the years I was never one of ‘those’ girls that people wanted. Yeah, sure, I was nerdy-ish…who wasn’t as a kid or through the awkward teen years? Like I never knew that when you were that age you were supposed to be rustling your makeup-ed feathers as a mating call, ha! Even now, after just exiting the teen years and approaching my 22nd birthday in the summer of 2016, and leaving that awkward stage….I still am not fully satisfied. I still see that kid standing there in the mirror looking back at me and I can’t see what I’ve become. Dysmorphia? Maybe.
I just was never able to see my body as the beautiful piece of art that it was supposed to be seen as. When people said I have confidence in the performing arts, I can’t help but say ‘Thanks…” while mumbling under my breath ‘thanks for the compliment on my acting skills…’
The thing that people do not understand is that you can tell someone a person is beautiful until you keel over…in the end, it comes down to the person to see it themselves. In my case, still, it is hard.
Not only until the past few months have I started to actually grow to like my body little-by-little. Seeing how it’s actually a beautiful canvas has started to help me see myself in a good light. The artwork on my body has helped me see that ‘hold on a minute….I actually am a piece of art….nothing is wrong with my canvas’…
That being said, I can not wait to go in and get a crow flying on my arm. Crows also represent change and so far the art on my body reveals both the ups and downs and how I’m overcoming them and turning them into something great on me. Sometimes it takes some time in the dark to be able to truly appreciate the beauty that resides shining in the light surrounding you every day.
If any of you ever need someone to talk to when your demons decide to come out to play and you need a listening ear, or if you would like to share any of your tattoos or stories..please feel free to comment or shoot me an e-mail.
Love you all and don’t let anyone dim out your amazing shine. Glow, baby, glow.
xox
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